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Swiss will be opened seventh February. I watched in it today. It was very elegant. I must be going to quit after one month but. I am impressed about the change. I think that I want to work more there. I want to talk more with friends. I thought those. I want to drink and drunk with them. It is too early to quit swiss for me. I can’t do anything, so it is hard and difficult things. I live with my friend now, and I must go back home. This life is very enjoyed and happy for me, so I don’t want to leave that room. I want to live more time in that room. It is nearby university. The place is useful for me. I think very much that can I go to university from my home? I must do it. My condition is the worst. Really I don’t want to think anything. I want to just gamble. When I gamble, I don’t think anything. I enjoy very much when I gamble. I cannot help living without gamble. Probably it is bad sick. But I need rest. I have worked foe three years at swiss. Those companies are like my family. I don’t want to part from them. I have decided to quit it, so I can’t go back to past, and I can’t continue it, and I can’t stop to quit it. Swiss has become beautiful, but I must quit it. By the way, Swiss was very beautiful, so I want you and everyone to come to it. I would like to you welcoming to it. (270)

My life

I’m sleepy now, I will be hungry tomorrow. I don’t have interesting things recently. I have no money now, so I don’t play with friends or gambling. I must do job hunting too. In fact I have no time to play, but I think that people need a rest for everyone. I take too rest but. Recently I think that what am I doing? Does it have some mean to play or do for me? It is no my life. I think that my life has been finished. I feel it recently. Probably it is because I must quit my part time job. Other thing, I must do job hunting, and I must find a work. Actually I don’t want to find a work, because I want to play more. If I quit this job, I feel that I don’t live my life, I really feel it. Probably if I lost my girlfriend, I also feel it, so I don’t know what to do. I don’t laugh very much, recently. I think very much that I don’t want to work at normal work. I don’t like recruits, and I don’t want to become so, I think, but almost people are sure to become it. Maybe I don’t like undertake. If I can make and built company, of course I want to make it, and I want to be the president, or I want to live to enjoy if I have such money. Everyone loves someone, so anyone think that they want to marry and have family. They have family, they start thinking that they want to or must protect their families. I think that it is people’s weakness and strength. I think that I want to protect my girl friend, but I don’t know why she said that “I can’t associate with you, if you don’t quit your job now.” Of course I don’t want to part from her, and she thinks so too. This problem is very difficult for me. How do I do? I want anyone to help me. I’m very sad now. I don’t know girl’s heart. I don’t do anything at my part time job, of course I work, but I don’t have a guilty conscience. Should I part from her? I don’t know anything. Help me someone! I’m very hard to live my life, and I start thinking that I don’t want to live my life. I can’t feel happiness lately. I don’t want to think anything, I can’t find new way, I can’t live real my life, and I don’t know what to do eventually. I’m worry very much about my life. I think that I should not quit this part time job now, it is too early. I can take a rest and vacant, so I have and take enough time to do job hunting, but my girlfriend said that if you work this job, you can’t find a work. Why she has decided it already. I don’t know wholly. I want her to believe me more. I believe her. She say to me “I believe you,” but she don’t think so. Maybe she breaks my life, but I love her. Please tell me! What can I do? Anyway, I don’t want to quit my part time job, and I don’t want to part from my girlfriend now, but she says that if I can’t quit this job, she can’t associate with me. I am to hard to think this situation. (580)

Hirotaka N

Hirotaka N is very nice guy, it is lie. It is lie, too. He is real nice guy, but he is black or brown, but it is good point for him. He is pretty, but he don’t like to be call “you are pretty,” so he cut his hair, and he said to clerk of the beauty parlor that “I don’t like pretty guy, so I don’t want to be like him.” He cooked Nabe today. He is nice guy, but he doesn’t have his girlfriend, because he doesn’t like beautiful women. He likes woman who is like a catfish or monkey. His liking is very bad. He is nice guy but unfortunately his liking is too bad. He is wasteful. If you are curious of him, please tell me. I introduce him to you. He is very kind to me, but he is too kind, so his kind hurt people. On the Christmas day, actually he lives the night with five high school student, and of course they are women. He is bad guy. I am angry him, because he lied me. He didn’t say it to me. I want him to say it to me, then I am not angry him. The day, I was not there. I hate lie, and I don’t allow it, but I use it sometimes, because it is needed everyone. I think that people who have never said lie are not. People are sure to use lie for life, but lie frighten to me. I can’t believe people, so we only believe people. We must find truth. I love this words, “It is no reason to help being in trouble people.” (280)

French

I study French. I don’t use and speak English very much but. I can’t speak English against foreigners, because I’m shy when I speak English. I’m very shy, and too shy. I want to speak English very well. Anyway, I study French, but I don’t know that do I use French? I think that I want to go to France. I study French, but can I use French? Probably, I can’t speak French. I think that French can speak English, so I think that I may study only English. In fact, I like French. It is very beautiful sounds. Je mapelle Tomoki I. It’s mean that “My name I Tomoki I.” “R” of French is not sounded. It is little difficult for me and Japanese. Recently, my skill of speaking English is rose, I think. Probably I can speak English with foreigner now. I like movie very much lately. I watched Mission Impossible one, two, three, Bat Man Begins, The dark night, Dragon Kingdom and Happening. I watched very much. I have no money, so movie is good for me, and I can study English to watch the movies. (190)

Factory

I work at swiss factory recently, because it is remodeled now, so I work there, but factory doesn’t have enough time to work for us. I have six or seven times which I can work when I work at swiss café. I have only three times which I can work at factory. It is too short for me. I must earn much money this month and for next month. I must quit my part time job, because my girlfriend can’t associate with me if I don’t quit it. I don’t want to quit my part time job, because it is very enjoy for me, and I must earn much money. I don’t think that I can’t find new job. I can find job, but it is too hard for me. I am forth grade now, and I must do job hunting. I want much money. Really I want them. I don’t have them very much now. My payday is twentieth, so I must wait two weeks, and it is little salary in this month. I don’t think that I can live this month and next month. I’m worried about these things. I don’t have money, I don’t want to quit my part time job, I don’t think that I can find new part time job, and do I regret to quit it now? I don’t want to do it seriously, and I don’t want to part from my girlfriend. I don’t know what to do really. If I quit my part time job now, I have given hardship to my parents. I don’t want to quit my part time job. I want to say it any times. What do I do? Can I find new part time job? I must do it, but frankly speaking, I don’t want to work other part time job. I want to continue this job, because I must part from my friends and companies if I quit this job. I can’t quit this job. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to do anything now. (343)