My life

I’m sleepy now, I will be hungry tomorrow. I don’t have interesting things recently. I have no money now, so I don’t play with friends or gambling. I must do job hunting too. In fact I have no time to play, but I think that people need a rest for everyone. I take too rest but. Recently I think that what am I doing? Does it have some mean to play or do for me? It is no my life. I think that my life has been finished. I feel it recently. Probably it is because I must quit my part time job. Other thing, I must do job hunting, and I must find a work. Actually I don’t want to find a work, because I want to play more. If I quit this job, I feel that I don’t live my life, I really feel it. Probably if I lost my girlfriend, I also feel it, so I don’t know what to do. I don’t laugh very much, recently. I think very much that I don’t want to work at normal work. I don’t like recruits, and I don’t want to become so, I think, but almost people are sure to become it. Maybe I don’t like undertake. If I can make and built company, of course I want to make it, and I want to be the president, or I want to live to enjoy if I have such money. Everyone loves someone, so anyone think that they want to marry and have family. They have family, they start thinking that they want to or must protect their families. I think that it is people’s weakness and strength. I think that I want to protect my girl friend, but I don’t know why she said that “I can’t associate with you, if you don’t quit your job now.” Of course I don’t want to part from her, and she thinks so too. This problem is very difficult for me. How do I do? I want anyone to help me. I’m very sad now. I don’t know girl’s heart. I don’t do anything at my part time job, of course I work, but I don’t have a guilty conscience. Should I part from her? I don’t know anything. Help me someone! I’m very hard to live my life, and I start thinking that I don’t want to live my life. I can’t feel happiness lately. I don’t want to think anything, I can’t find new way, I can’t live real my life, and I don’t know what to do eventually. I’m worry very much about my life. I think that I should not quit this part time job now, it is too early. I can take a rest and vacant, so I have and take enough time to do job hunting, but my girlfriend said that if you work this job, you can’t find a work. Why she has decided it already. I don’t know wholly. I want her to believe me more. I believe her. She say to me “I believe you,” but she don’t think so. Maybe she breaks my life, but I love her. Please tell me! What can I do? Anyway, I don’t want to quit my part time job, and I don’t want to part from my girlfriend now, but she says that if I can’t quit this job, she can’t associate with me. I am to hard to think this situation. (580)