life is difficult

I could wake up this morning. I can't always wake up everyday. I can't sleep early, so I can't wake up early. I think hard that I sleep early. I can't sleep more if I think and think. I have much money a week ago. But now, I have no money very much. Of course, I went to do a gamble. I can't win recently. I'm in Daisakkai. But I can't quit it. I enjoy doing it. Anyway, it is the Christmas soon. It is painful season if you don't have your partner. You should find partner. The Christmas of one is very sad. (104)